that today, I actually took time to open my laptop and go on FB & Tumblr and waste a few hours online. =)) Since last week kase ang aga kong natutulog as in 9 pm tulog na ako. =)) Be proud please. :(( As in ngayon nalang ako ulit nag-online ng maayos for real. =)) Nakakatamad kase tas narealize kong ang sarap matulog. =D>

The reason why I’m even up is because my mom said she wants to watch the Horror movies ganyan for English. =)) So I made her watch yung kela Angela and yung kela Sherisse. :)) Tas inattempt ko ipa-watch sakanya yung mga gawa ng classmates ko pero she got busy with Cafe World & Farmville so yeah. -______- And I’ve been stalking someone. =)) Oh no.

As in may gusto akong ilabas pero hindi ko alam kung ano, for sure hindi ‘to tae.

Anyhoo good night. :)

I had to reblog, ang cute ni Jeux dito. =))))))))))))))))) Parang baby.

NEED

I beg to differ.

I admit, at times, well probably most of the time, I may seem superficial. Yes, I admire extravagant and expensive things which are way above my standards. But it doesn’t mean that I admire only these things. I am human; I admire effort and kind words that makes my heart melt. Mataray as I seem, I’m actually a very nice person once you get to know me. I am not choosy with who my friends are.

People have always judged me as mataray. Countless people have told me that, “Akala ko mataray ka, hindi naman pala.” You’re entitled to your own opinion, I won’t judge nor get mad if you do think that I am mataray.

Oo, may times na masungit ako. Lalo na pag wala akong tulog or pag badtrip ako over something completely irrelevant to you or may problem ako. Pero sana marealize niyo ren na tao ako and may feelings ako? =)) We all have our moments wherein we can’t control our emotions. Lalo na ako, I have anger management issues which I got from my dad. I have a hard time controlling my anger as in intense talaga okay. Sana minsan intindihin niyo ako for a moment kase iniintindi ko ren kayo okay. :)) I mean, inaamin ko naman pag may kasalanan ako. I even swallow my pride down and go up to you and say sorry for what I’ve done. Pwedeng appreciate? =))

I try to be independent but I am a needy person at times. My emotions have never been stable ever since my parents got separated. For some reason, affected paren ako? Tanggap ko na and everything pero affected ako in a way na takot ako sa life. Takot ako magtrust, takot ako magmahal (uy shet ano ‘to =)) ), takot ako magtake ng risks ganyan. Bumaba yung self-esteem ko for no apparent reason? Wait feeling ko alam ko pero di ako sure kung bakit. =)) May times lang na ang insecure ko sa kapatid ko. I am always pressured to do my best and be better than her all the time. It sounds stupid pero there’s something about our sibling rivalry na sobrang competitive lang kase. As in sorry kung in-assume ko na may middle child syndrome si Claire kahit kameng 2 lang (pero kase swear yung ugali pang middle child talaga) pero feeling ko may eldest child syndrome ako. =)) Shit imbento.

Hindi ako yung tipo ng person na mahilig mang-fish for comments like Ang ganda mo, Ang talino mo, etc. (Wait wag kayo assuming na ang assuming ko =)) ) Pero talagang mababa lang yung self-esteem ko at times as in hindi ko ma-explain pero talagang may times na I’m at my worst and I really need to hear words that would cheer me up or boost my self-esteem.

I am still unstable. I just need to feel the love of the people around me. Nothing more, nothing less.

Sorry for randomly venting. I just had to let it out. =))

OHMYGOD JEUX FAJARDO!!!!! =)) AS IN ANG GWAPO NIYA DITO PLEASE? SANA GUY NALANG SI AMANDA BYNES. =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Too awesome for words?!?!?!? I think I’m in heaven.

What is perfection?

Bakit ganon. :))

ktlntn:

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Now this is fencing. =)))))))))))))))))))